Mish Mash Wednesday

1, Where have I been? Not an easy week, I'm weighing how to handle something that has consequences no matter how I approach it. Too important to be anything but thoughtful and too concerning to back burner my feelings. I keep reminding myself that love is at the root of it all, no villains, no judgements. I trust the love. But in the meantime, my heart hurts.

2. Change of subject: I am writing this on my new MacPro laptop. I have been so excited about this purchase: I feel like I have stepped into a modern world that will welcome me. I've found I cannot write this second book without the confidence that I will not lose new material, not to mention my snipped together revising manuscript. It's the worse thing, losing new work. There is no way to recreate fresh words strung together into sentences, then paragraphs. So, I'm told I'm not as likely to accidentally delete anything on this Mac, I keep checking Dropbox to be sure its updating, and now I will also at the end of a writing session save a manuscript copy to a little external drive. AND, thanks to Pam, I will sometimes email a copy to myself.

The Mac is awesome. I have a high learning curve, but we will become good friends.

3. The photo above is Provincetown. It's no surprise I love the place. In the off season, meaning not in summer, there are less than 4,000 residents. That swells to 20,000 when the temperature rises, beginning Memorial Day. Summer is a funky wild beautiful beachy boating time, but I've recently spent a string of dark desolate very quiet winterdays and nights there, and what tiny charm and peacefulness. JB and I walk to a movie matinee and sit in a threatre with only 65 seats and usually less than ten patrons. Provincetown is famous for many things and people, but the top of the list is its light. The light bounces of the bay and the ocean in magical ways. I am always grateful to see the shimmering light of the bay just about anywhere I walk.

5. I'm intrigued by many of the comments on my last post. Turns out friendships born from the blogs are more often than not primary friendships. I knew that, of course, because some of my closest friends have been made from blogging,, but I'm surprised with the polite disagreement regarding my recommendation to keep your 'day' friends. I get it, but in a crisis, or in lonely social times, I can't imagine not having a friend nearby, close enough to knock on my door if really needed.

I've posted a little poll on my side bar about friends and blog friends. Please contribute your two cents if you don't mind. I think it's safe to say the world has changed, the way we find and make and hold on to friends has changed. I can't imagine not having my friend Marsha twenty minutes up the road, or my friends Lo and Liz and Heather close enough, but I also can't imagine not coming here to greet my equally precious friends. Here I share in ways I often don't and can't in daily life.

6. Finally, there might be a snowstorm tonight, the first snow since October. Too funny, just as I'm in search of my first crocuses. But I don't mind. I'll be writing today and if I end up writing tomorrow instead of working, that's okay with me.

I am now about to hit 'publish post' with no idea how my new shiny MacPro will space or spellcheck. I'm just happy to be typing on it. It's really cool.

Love

kj