I'm in no mood.
I've been sick for two weeks. Here I am in Provincetown for five days with ample time to write and relax and I'm prone on the couch, almost too weak to growl. Please, no sympathy comments. I have a respiratory virus and it will pass and meanwhile I'm in no mood.
From which I just thought, "better not post when I'm like this," followed by "I wonder how ornery I'd let myself be?"
Well:
Blah blah blah about friends. In my world, they're the best but sometimes the worse. They disappoint. They come and go. They fail to follow through and they disappear and they draw lines and sometimes they miss the point.
Blah blah blah also about love. Love heals but it also leaves scars. Those people who retreat and vow to never love again? They may have a point. I'm not one of those people, which may or may not work in my favor.
Blah blah blah about science and medicine. Gee whiz WTF doc, you can't tell me more than rest and drink fluids? I had to wait a week for a physician assistant to tell me to do myself a favor and breathe over a steaming kettle?
A zillion blah blah blahs for anyone who hurts an animal. This includes the ritualistic religious brutalization of pigs and horses, a recent scene from which I am destined to recall all too clearly for far too long.
I should include blah blah blah for a lack of gratitude, impatience with the flaws of others, rushes to judgement, and endless complaining, but that would unfortunately clearly implicate myself and at the moment I'm in no mood.
I will end this by saying yay for me for writing this and thank you for you for reading it. Now again, no get well wishes please. I'd rather you let off your own steam instead. The universal blah blah blah personhood might even appreciate hearing from you.
ah, love kj
Well I will send you a hug. That's OK isn't it? Hugs are medicine KJ.
ReplyDeleteWhen I pray I don't think there's anyone listening. If there is such a thing as a Universal Personhood I'd bloody well appreciate hearing from him/her/it.
Friends come and go for sure. You can't keep them by force of will and you can never be sure that they feel what we feel. It's a bugger but there we are ... that's life.
Someone said to me recently that friendships are the trickiest of all relationships because the boundaries are less clear. Expectations are raised and dashed without the other person even being aware. Ha! Such is life.
Omery ... never heard of it ... are you sure you don't mean onery? Don't shout at the comupter KJ I can't hear you from way over here ... but I think I detect the beginnings of a grin ... just a small one.
Much love ... and another hug because I did hear you but I decided to disregard some of what you said. So there. ♥ Jos
jos, GRRRGRRRGRRRkisskissGRRGRRGGGRR. thank you you goofball: you made me laugh, not just a grin! but from where i look i spelled ornery right, didn't i? i wish you lived in my town, jos ♥
DeleteHahahahah you're right!!! Need to get my glasses re-done the r and the n ran together when I looked the first time. Ha! I wish I lived in your town too KJ. I'm glad I made you laugh.
DeleteAnd since I'm here pushing my luck ... I hope you feel better soon. And since I've already blown it I shall send you another hug too. Much love ♥ Jos
ps I like this new commenting thing, sooooo organised!
Blessings and Bear hugs (lots of hugs)! Jos says hugs are medicinal. I agree. But isn't that what you'd expect a Bear to say?
ReplyDeleteSuggesting that something in a brown bottle (or green, or clear) may help you in your situation. As long as it is about 85 proof. Your prompt recovery will be the proof you took what you needed.
In the meantime, rant away. Your friends will nod their heads knowingly. Opinions of others are immaterial.
rob bear, the brown, green or clear 85 proof is a great idea! except i no longer can :^( thank you for supporting my rants and rolls. i should probably hibernate now xo
Deleteha ha ha!!! I'm so glad you are sick and down and out - I'm a miserable friend and I'm jumping for joy that I don't have to be all sensitive and kind and say "oh poor KJ, please get well soooonnn" And we all know that Love Stinks and Respiratory Virus' stink even more.
ReplyDeleteso there!! i enjoy not being kind and supportive. so there!!!
(love mim)
and another HA - my last verification word was "MENDI". Which I did not wish to you, as in "i hope you are on the mend(i)".
ReplyDeleteah but mim, i cannot pretend you are a miserable friend. i have my limits. i'm glad, however, i have presented you with an opportunity to rant back. kind of feels pretty good, huh? ♥
DeleteLol Kj I knew you had it in you! It sounds like your reading from the universal hand book of WTF....I could go on and on and maybe I should but I don't want to give you any more ammo! Place target here, and all that.
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Wander
hee hee chris. i'm glad you now know i'm no saint :^)
DeleteBeing sick sucks. Especially when you are sick in a beautiful place where you especially want to be well. And who doesn't want their doctor to be a magician when they feel lousy?
ReplyDeleteHope all the fluids and resting and breathing-in-of-steam helps and you're back in less ornery spirits soon! ♥
cs, i'm better already. i'm starting to wonder if ranting is good for me. sometimes. maybe occasionally. infrequently. :^)
DeleteWell what the heck do you want me to say? Stay sick?
ReplyDeleteSorry can't do that!
sending chicken soup...dump it if you don't want it...just don't tell my you did. LOL
I'm too tired to rant about anything today.
I'm sad about a friend with cancer looking at a double mastectomy later this month. I'm sad for my aunt with dementia so bad she just looks out of eyes that don't register names to faces anymore. Looks lost like a deer in the headlights. I could make her smile though. Doesn't matter if she knew it was ME. Just seeing her smile was worth the effort.
I'm tried and trying not to feel too down about all this.
Going back to read my book about Henrietta Lacks who died of cervical cancer and her cells live on helping modern medicine today! But neither she nor her family benefited from them/that.
lynn, seriously, i'm so sorry to hear about your friend and your aunt. i have a friend with cancer too and i have every hope she is going to survive and thrive. i hope this is true in this case too. i'm glad you can see your aunt laugh. our bodies know and that's what's most important. and lynn, thanks for the chicken soup. it's helped me already. xoxo
DeleteI'm sure a good rant has done you the world of good! Glad to see you're in better spirits now - your NY pics above are great - I'd love to visit there someday!
DeleteI LOOOOOVVVVVEEEE that picture! My friend Patty has both of those dogs in her kitchen. Imagine the conversations. Just cracks me up to look at it. Be brave and do hard things! I'm keeping the pic :)
ReplyDeleteoh man. well, hmm. what to say... i can't help it! feel better!! it's okay to be grumpy when you don't feel well. and even when you do. owen just ate my slipper so i'm a little grumpy too. i would make you chicken soup too if i were close by, it's my favorite thing when i don't feel well. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteYou grumpy old woman, you! Well, no hugs from Holland (alliteration what?) because I am much to scared of your nasty germs. :-)))
ReplyDeleteOh, I do so LOVE a grumpy rant. I'm tempted to tell you to feel better, and rest up, and drink lots of fluids, and oh, don't forget to steam your head, and take vitamin C - but who knows what you'd do to me? hahaha! I will send hugs & kisses from me to your poor sick self. xoxox!
ReplyDeleteHa,,,I had to come check this ornery post out!
ReplyDeleteYou did a great job,,,,and I don't even CARE if you feel better.
(that would be a lie, though)
This is the longest I've seen you sick :(
ReplyDeleteSecond opinion on the horizon??
Grumpy is good sometimes. We can't be all goodness and light every freakin' moment!
xoxo
Lo♥
My grumpiness today involves disappointment with others, promises made and broken by myself and others. Rushing to judgement. Generalized shit and a dirty house. Life sucks the big one at the moment. This too shall pass. Hope you're better soon. Viruses suck the big one too:)
ReplyDeleteok i just taped over my sympathetic mouth. nice to read a few gripes once in awhile.
ReplyDeleteJust a tiny note to say I'm sorry you were so sick. I feel like that when I'm laid up as well...like last week, when I stayed in bed for a WHOLE DAY! Grumpiness galore...! xx
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