Renee

I know there was some mention that Renee is awake, that we are wondering and all so concerned about her. I know that as of yesterday Renee is still in the hospital, awake for 10-15 minutes at a time. She is not alone and everything that can be done is being done to help her be comfortable.

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I don't know alot more than anyone else, but I can tell you that the love, caring, and comments are helping Renee's family greatly in this difficult time. I have printed out some of our posts about Renee and sent them to Angelique in the hope that she may be able to read or show them to Renee.

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My darling friend,

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I and everyone who loves you prays most of all for no more pain.

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I had a silly thought last night. We are mourning your loss at the same time we believe in the power of miracle, the strength of prayer and love. I thought what if you recovered and laughed your head off at all of us who have already said goodbye to you, We would hear your har har har all over the word, Renee!
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I have gotten to know some of your friends in the past few weeks. I didn't know that you and Linda Sue were room mates at the lake, or that you and Allegra made a LALF pact. All these special private and one-on-one special and often magical relationships that you have made with so many people who cherish you, who hold your heart now and forever.

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The last time I heard from you, you had just gotten the flowers from Laurel and me and you told us both to expect a call from you later in the day, once the bats settled down.

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I'm glad that you had those flowers beside your bed when you left for the hospital.

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I'm glad that I talked to you on Christmas eve, that the treasure chest meant so much, that I know about Heidi, that we talked about hospice and dying and leaving your family. I'm glad that I know the way you say your name, the time you've taken to tend to me--me: even when it made more sense to tend to you.

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I'm glad that we are both grandmothers, that our grandbabies are the same age, that we love them so much we can't even put words to that much love.
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I'm glad that you told me how much your Raven Sister Laurel means to you, how much you love Bella Sinclair, how you and Allegra know each other by feel alone, how much Deborah's prayers have meant to you.

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I'm glad that the blogs have been your 'three pack a day' habit, that they have gotten you through the bats and days in ways you will never forget.

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I'm glad that you and Pattee and Sonia and I joined the Gypsy Caravan, you wild tarot card reader, that you have had the joy of Lo's ravens, Lori's photographs and Angela's angels, Bella's illustrations, Julie Ann's portraits, Baino's kindness, Ribbon and Sweet Mango's wisdom, Deb's prayers. I'm glad that artists and writers and mystics and muses have flocked to you, our Senior Healing Angel.

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I'm glad that you taught me how to love without holding back and without apologizing for it.

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I'm glad that you deleted some comments on your blog because you knew they could hurt or offend.

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I'm glad that I won't be so afraid of dying because of you, that I know you will see my Father sitting beside your Father, and now your Mother, and Sheldon.

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I'm glad that I will someday see you, greeting me with your smile and your har har and your special prayer that begins with F--.

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I'm glad you are so important to me. I will never forget you. Never.

Someday I may meet your children, your grandchildren. I wouldn't be surprised.

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My dearest darling Renee. It is not the same without you. Are you free of pain? Are you comfortable? Can you feel the love?

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If we have to lose you here, I know you will watch for all of us in your new assignment.

You are a Senior Angel, Renee Khan. You've done your job totally perfectly.

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You've left an army behind.

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Love always,

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kj ♥