I've found the deepest words come from the deepest place. This week's image from The Mag brought me back to such a place, so here it is. i added a line and I'm pleased about that.
Melancholy
How far is too far?
Sometimes, after midnight,
I stretch my fingers so they extend like perfect pencils
And I try to imagine that in the act of drawing lines and circles
I can span the distance and straighten fate
Like red hot steel
So that it curves around your driveway
Instead of around our destinies.
.
I;m not complaining, you know.
How lucky can a person be to
Live with a heart that deepens and expands
Through this connection that
Despite every outage and short circuit
Sparks its way into distant light
And guides and replenishes
The little chair by the door.
I will never complain.
I learn to wait:
It’s a winding train
On its way to fate.
There will be times when fate vacations
And so will we.
There will be times when we forget altogether
And pass the sugar only to chuckle
That we’ve forgotten that even with extra wooden slats
there’s not a kitchen table in the universe
that can extend that far.
And there will be a time, or two, when the phone rings
Probably Before sunrise
And as the receiver lies flat
one of us is on a plane,
not to rejoice but to rejoin.
When my daughter was little
I thought about the end of the world
And I wondered if I could reach her
In time.
I wondered who I would race to
If there were only seconds before the island
Closed shut.
I didn’t know then that I would ask these questions
For all of my life.
I didn’t know then that
I will one day close my eyes,
And so will you,
And hope that in that moment
We have one last riotious laugh.
I didn’t know that loving you,
Meant that life would then be lived
In a certain absentia.
Not less full, or wonderous,
Not less engaged or enigmatic
But a little like the melancholy
Of a dark sky missing one star.
It’s only one star,
One among thousands,
But in the great scheme of things.
It’s a black hole with neon flashes.
But we own this sky,
Me and you.
And then, blue angels standing guard:
It’s me.
This post was inspired by The Mag. There you'll find some fine writers and poets. Thanks for the privilege.
Love
kj
It’s me.
This post was inspired by The Mag. There you'll find some fine writers and poets. Thanks for the privilege.
Love
kj
I love love the fingers like pencils thing...wonderful write...and welcome to The Mag!
ReplyDeleteTess, thank you very much
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So beautifully written KJ! A life lived with the absence of a little melancholy sounds like a fine thing. You give hope of that accomplishment. I so loved all the word pictures in here...the extending table, the sky just one star short. I get to "Bravo" back at you friend. Just awesome!
ReplyDeleteThank you Annie. The hope I felt when this was written did not sustain. But I look back and am I glad I felt this way
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kj
The last stanza leaves my stomach in a knot. I know about the sky and the stars. I feel this piece through my own lens and it will linger when I go. It could be me, but there is deep pain admitted and mingled in resolve here.
ReplyDeleteOh Amy, you got this; love wrapped on a deep pain, a willingness anyhow. Thank you
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kj
OH!
ReplyDeleteA fabulous write, kj!
So many places to get lost in this one,,,wandering into my own story,,,,, but this part:
"I wondered who I would race to
If there were only seconds before the island
Closed shut"
gave me goose bumps.
As did the chair by the door, the star,the table, the pencils, the driveway.
Please do more of these. Please?
Babs, ever notice it's harder to write deep when all is well? So it is for me! Your support and praise is gold to me, my friend
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kj
Reflective poetry,
ReplyDeleteespecially late at night
brings its own melancholy.
Dark days — the end of the world
dark nights — missing a star.
But also an expanding heart.
Nicely written.
Thank you rob.it's all true. I know you know
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kj
nice...love the fingers of pencils and you ave a really nice flow....oy as you draw to a close though you cinch us up tight...really nice....
ReplyDeleteHi Brian! Thank you very much. I cinch you up tight? Awwww!
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Love
kj
Ah...let the world end. It is already one solidly fucked up place as a whole and when the individual despairs in it, then the circle is completely closed and that missing star, that dark hole grows drawing the very fabric of space inescapably into it.
ReplyDeleteMark, I hope you feel better today!!! You know I cannot fully agree :-)
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kj
Some awfully good writing here; thanks.
ReplyDeleteBerowne, I meet you through Shakespeare
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Thank you very much for your comment about my writing
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Beautifully written; I still have not learned yet how to wait. I'm hoping my entire life doesn't go by before I learn that skill.
ReplyDeleteYour writing is such a treat. :)
Tracy, I'm still learning myself. Plus I'm learning about my own company.
DeleteI am behind reading two of your posts. But I will: I eiuldn't miss them
Love to you Tracy
kj
This is fantastic. I have never written such a long poem in my life- wow! I am in awe. And as for the new header- double awe. xx
ReplyDeleteJoss, maybe blabbermouths like me write longer poems :-)
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kj
Very lovely KJ. Very lovely indeed. I've read it twice. I think I need to read it about ten times more. Resolve. I need to get back to mine. **blows kisses** Deb
ReplyDeleteThank you deb. I guess I felt resolve when I wrote this but love can turn and go wrong. Still, it's true I feel this way and i glad
DeleteStay strong !
Love, always
kj