Little Gifts # 4

Not going to be so easy. 

I had hoped this Christmas there would be time, family, friends, cookies, restaurants, warm bread, a tree already. I had hoped a sadness that was planted a few years back would be gone, but finally I know it is part of me and I am wise to honor it.

It's not to be. There have been troubles here; not catastrophic but unsettling. Many are now resolving. But tonight I am replacing my imagination with small possibilities and likelihoods. Over the next two weeks I will take my 96 year old very active godmother for a Mexican lunch. I will visit Joe and bring him chocolates. I will delight in wrapping certain presents and god help me, I hope I'll cook at least one good meal. And a tree. It will be smaller and maybe the damn lights will stay on this year.

I thought my little gifts throughout December would be easy. Not so much. This is what I have to give tonight:

Chase is WAY better. It's only been a week or so that he's had no seizures, no knockouts from his medicine, but it is so nice to see him, even for a week, settle into our home and enjoy his life as a dog. I think you can tell by these pictures that he is feeling better. He is sweet, fascinating, and odd. I think we are going to be great friends. 

And a little gift of advice from me:

I'm not quite in the mood
To be wise witty or lewd
It's enough I'm awake
For holiday's sake!
I'm reminded again
Whether family or friend
Don't pursue the last word:
To be right is absurd.
Better to start
An accord of the heart
and let things unfold
while the story is told.

In other words, relax.

love
kj