Friday, September 04, 2015

Here. I. Am.


Well: we're here. JB and I arrived in Provincetown 10 days ago, followed by a 35 foot moving truck 3 days after that. It's been STRESSFUL and EXHAUSTING--what seems like months of packing and sorting and planning and scheduling….and feeling. Possessions aren't just things: they're memories. I've cried a bit packing those boxes. It's been hard to downsize--books, clothes, papers and pens--but I did it and I'm doing it and I'm glad.

Moving to Provincetown feels almost perfect except for the fact that my daughter and SIL and 4 precious fascinating grandchildren are two hours away. Maybe that doesn't sound like much of a distance, and it isn't, but it's far enough that I wasn't there to hear about the first day of school and I can't spontaneously take them to my new beach. Still, on Monday we traveled that 2 hours and took the two older boys to play miniature golf and then games at the arcade, and then lunch at Pizzeria Uno. And afterwards, JB and I took these two 'littles'--shown here--out for ice cream and chased them in the park across the street. 

Simple good times that embed simple good memories. That is how I want these kids to remember me. And how I want them to know how much I love them.

JB has a studio at Whalers' Wharf, located on the third floor of an open air building that is just fantastic. She is excited in an extraordinary way and that makes me excited too. As for me, this 1400 square foot house is feeling good and so is the small areas of our small yard. I will take my turtle time and landscape each. 

I am also getting ready to write again, to return to my almost finished novel; first draft finished, not yet edited or shopped around. I will need a routine here and I don't have it yet, which is fine with me.

It's been pretty emotional moving. My Mother died where I have moved from and even irrationally I feel like I've left her alone. Too, I will miss the farms and fresh fruit and vegetable stands and some friends and the house. The new owners are painting all the walls white: I'm hoping the house won't mind….

If you are still reading this, please excuse the fact that this is all about me and says very little; just a broad update on my comings but beneath it all a wish for a happy life here for JB and me. I think we have a good shot at that. I wouldn't presume or dare ask for more than hope. 

I think I'll be back to blogging soon. I miss it here. Meanwhile, I'll be catching up on your blogs and sending waves of gratitude and abundance into the universe. Life is hard but damn sometimes it glimmers.

love
kj

18 comments:

  1. I hope this new part of your life is everything you want it to be and more. I am definitely not a person who glides through life.

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    1. thank you, e. i don't easily glide either but often standing still is even harder for me, so i let the wind carry me along. i've gotten better at landing but not always :^)

      love
      kj

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  2. there are times when it should be all about you! you've had an awful lot going on my friend.
    OK - let's pick a weekday and I will come to visit. let's find a day when I am not traveling and you are in town and the stars align correctly

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    1. general announcement: mim is coming to visit me and i am tickled purple!

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  3. I know you know your Mom would be thrilled for you! As am I.

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    1. thank you. my Mother always encouraged the times i vacationed. she'd tell me i deserved it. for my part, i didn't stay away too long. it was a nice balance.

      thanks for your good wishes and your regular visits here. much appreciated. xo

      love
      kj

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  4. I think you and JB will be inspired, creative and happy in your new home :} Your mom is always with you and as Cyndi and Stumpy said "she is thrilled for you". Thrive and prosper in this beautiful place. Biggest hug to you Karen <3

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    1. would love to see you here, val. you know i mean it.

      love love
      kj

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  5. I'm so glad you're settling into your new digs and sounding more chipper than when you last posted.

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    1. thanks, snow. i'm chipper sometimes and other times flustered. it's an unsettling time in my life, even for good cause. i hope you're feeling better yourself.

      love
      kj

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  6. Welcome home! I am actually looking forward to downsize and move. Of course I have only moved from Hawaii to New York and from there, here. Living in this house filled with so many happy memories is going to be hard moving from, as it will to sell all the heirlooms with long stories attached to them, a reminder of where I came from.

    You will be happy and that I promise you. Renee used to call me the fairy godmother from Happiness, and how I wish that were true. But just in case she was, here: you both will be happy in your new home.

    Remember, no one can ever changed what a fairy grants.

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    1. allegra, oh that last line! you say it and i believe it xo

      it is indeed hard to move; hard to let the memories embedded in 'things' pass on or away. i can't say i've landed safely yet. as we both know, time is a healer. i am always tickled to hear from you, my dear friend. i hope your wonderful memories don't hurt quite as much.

      i also still hope to join you for tea.

      love always
      kj

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  7. So do they call you Capers or Cods? *meh* either is cool, be well and stay the course kj.

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    1. thanks, mark. and a steady course for you too.

      jeesh!

      love
      kj

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  8. I just finished reading your book...quite a story...I skimmed over the parts about the accident because I knew someone who died that way long ago and could not go there...I hope your next endeavor is as interesting.

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    1. e, what a nice surprise to know you've read my book! thank you xo

      my second book has grabbed me by the ears and i'm enthralled with the characters! it's about a family and devotion. and a spirited Mother who guides her life by poetry and john denver :^)

      love
      kj

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  9. So what that’s it’s all about you? Who else should be the subject of your blog?

    Here are my best wishes for a happy life in your new abode; loving and friendship and joy and hope go with us wherever we go.

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    1. i wish all this for you too, friko. i know what it's like to be consumed by caring for a loved one. i hope you are not totally alone in all this. and i hope there is relief and respite. hang on.

      love
      kj

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