Sunday, April 14, 2013

Little Me

"Long ago God drew a circle in the sand exactly around the spot where you are standing right now. You were never not coming here. This was never not going to happen.” — Elizabeth Gilbert

One two three four
I'm walking through an open door
five six seven eight
No idea what might await
Nine ten eleven twelve
Knees do knock and ready to delve
--ms. kj

This photo intrigues me. I am standing on a kitchen floor in a little house by the sea that JB and I will take possession of next Friday, after a month of hazards and hysterics from a fiesty universe and a disappointing mortgage broker. 

It is not lost on me that while I know I was standing solid on that floor, the photo confirms that I was also up and down and around. Security may have a foundation but who's to say the foundation might be not be made of peekaboo glass or wispy cloud puffs or wiry roots from another world? 

Life is about chance. You can wait for chance to find you or you can venture forth to find it. In my case I seek to shake things up even though I'm no fan of change. In my case I am stretching once again to begin a new chapter yet written. I am leaving my job, taking out a mortgage, planting seeds for a time that has not come. 

I look at my appointment book and I see that I am booked into summer, maybe into fall. A new baby, a condo to sell, a research gig in process, a workshop to design, a book to finish, a garden to plant, a Mother, a daughter, a partner, a friend . 

I am living life. I don't like the stress, the sadness, the unfairness of what comes along with living, but I reckon those feet of mine will land where they're supposed to. Maybe this is true, maybe it isn't. But I reckon to see it that way.

That way works better for me.



  1. A new «chez nous», Karen. Exciting! Has emily give her stamp of approval?

    Life is indeed about chance, and the level of risk you can tolerate and accept. I think you must be relatively "high tolerance."

    Blessings and Bear hugs!
    Bears Noting

  2. you are very inspirational to me dear KJ - the way you face things, your thoughts on life, your approach.
    lovely lovely lovely about the house. Just Lovely.

  3. Fantastic news re your house by the sea. Be happy!

  4. aw mim, me too.

    in the photo it looks like the sky, your shoes a magic carpet. you can do anything ms kj.

    the house on friday!

  5. Yes, chance. I don't know about the supposed to, but our feet land where they will and then you keeping walk the path from there. I think that's okay.

  6. I think mayhaps that you actually thrive on change and remaking what was into something new and more suitable for a taste of charm and passion for newness in life.

    I think that you will fret until you have planted your first footprint and JB hers, then you will go to work to remake what once was someone elses into something that is yours.

    I think that is the way life aught to be. That and Black and White movies from the late thirties.

  7. Kj, Booked until Fall! I am not even booked into next week. Most people think that being busy is being alive and it is just being busy, not life. With all you have going on my advice to you dear friend is to slow down and take lots of walks on that beautiful beach :-).
    Love all the photos below :-). xoxo

  8. KJ, straight from the horse's mouth:

  9. kj,
    This is such a good quote, and just rings so true.
    Congrats on the new house, and all the interesting changes!
    You do inspire indeed!

  10. I have to laugh at Annie's comment. for me, my slow life style, what she says is right on, though we all chose to live differently. i wish i could juggle many things at once. but alas...but i love it that you can!