Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Renee




I will never ever forget her.

Renee died three years ago this week. I have written about her before but in no way can I convey her uniqueness. She had dozens of us proclaiming love for each other and for her on her blog. She wrote about living with cancer and the bats in her stomach in the most honest and heartwarming way. 



Do yourself a favor and spend some time at  Circling My Head. Go back to 2009 and hear Renee herself waxing about life and love and family and art and forshitsakes. She will make you laugh and make you cry.

Everyday I love her deeply. Renee is one of a kind. 

This was one of her favorite poems. No wonder.

love
kj

 Here is Mayfly,
It is her first day on earth.
It is also her last.
Mayflies only live for one day.
But is she sad?
Not at all.
She is happy to be alive!

This isn't any old day.
This is the best of days.
She lives for each moment.
She sees the world begin,
She hears the crack of dawn.
And bathes in its golden glow.
A billion buds burst open.
All for her!

She tastes her honey.

Mayfly sees eggs hatch.
Babies born.
Lambs learning to stand.
The business of ants.
The dizziness of children...
The loveliness of things.

She feels the sun's warm hug.
The kiss of summer rain.
The magic of the rainbow.

It is her wedding day.
Trees throw confetti.
There are games on the lawn.
Breezes blow, bells chime.
Birds sing!
She dancesto the music of the universe.

Mayfly lays her eggs.
It is a peaceful night.
The best of nights.

She makes one last wish:
'Little ones, may all your tomorrows be as perfect as my yesterday!'
Mayfly watches the moon come up and the stars go out.
And is thankful for her wonderful life

29 comments:

  1. I know you are all thinking of your dear friend Renee. She was special to so many of you.
    ♥M

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    1. I wish you had known Renee, Marianne. Xoxo

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  2. ...and why or how could you forget one whom you loved? That she enriched you and makes you wealthier still is her testament--and as the poem says, in the end live a life with no regrets.

    Be Well and happy Kiddo.

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  3. mmm...i am sorry for your loss...cancer just took my wifes college roomate...at 38...what a special poem as well...we live while we can you know....

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  4. Brian, cancer sucks!

    Life rocks!

    Love
    kj

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  5. Kj, I miss her too and Vickie (Nolly), as well as all the loved ones I have lost in the last two years. I think of them all everyday. I can't believe it has been 3 years, time just marches on.
    xoxo

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    1. That is too much loss, Annie. It's time for you to soar. You deserve it.

      Love
      kj

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  6. I find myself thinking of Renee during those quiet times of day, when I'm painting, or cooking. She was one of the most interesting and vibrant people I have ever known. A hell of a writer, too. I always smile when I think of how much she loved everyone. I miss her. xox

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    1. How could she have communicated love like that, Pam? I often wonder how because I'm convinced had-has and knew-knows every fiber of what love is

      Love
      kj

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  7. Is it really 3 years? I think of her often when visiting your blog- as I 'feel' her on your pages. RIP dear Renee, you will never be forgotten.

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    1. Thank you joss. Lovely words

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    1. My twinkly twin, all that wisdom we have collected in these three years....

      Love
      kj

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  9. She was indeed a good soul. I'm glad to have known her, even if only briefly.

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    1. I'm glad you knew her, cs. I always liked that.

      Love
      kj

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  10. beautiful kj, renee lives on. sending big hugs to you this wednesday and love, lori

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    1. Did I meet you through Renee, Lori?

      See, she left us to love and take care of one another

      Your friendship is my blessing xo

      Love
      kj

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  11. I just had a Renee Moment on Monday during my walk...the thought suddenly came into my mind that my Mom had met Renee, and that thought made me so happy. Oh those two characters together in heaven...my my my. Come home and see on Robin's blog about this being her anniversary week...enter The God Zone. Forshitssake.

    Oh how I miss them both. I told Renee that I was going to miss her so much, and she replied, "I will always be with you". Now they both are. Just the thought makes me giggle.

    **kisskiss** Deb

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    1. Deb, there is NO doubt in my mind that Renee greeted and welcomed your Mother.

      What an impact. What lessons. What comfort.

      Together strong,
      Always love
      kj

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  12. I dearly miss her. She was my support and rock for me when my dad passed. She was my daughters cheerleader. She was my confidant and bff. And everyday I sit there and say there is no what if but yes I can. She was strength for so many people...and still is for myself and my daughter who has her saying that she told her before she passed tattooed on her chest piece. How I miss that wonderful woman.

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    1. Sonia, she blessed me in this way also. I know how much she meant to you.

      Together strong

      Love
      kj

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  13. Some people are like the centre of a wheel ... such an impact the hub has on everything and everyone connected. The beauty of Renee is that she always remained truly herself. I bet she is having so much fun in heaven, now she is an old hand at this senior angel gig she will be able to show us the ropes. I can hear her ... har har har. Yes together strong KJ. Big hug xx Jos

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    1. Jos, you are a treasure in my life ♥

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  14. so beautiful that you are remembering Renee and write of the way she moved you and others to love and tears.

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    1. Suki, Renee is unforgettable. I take great comfort knowing she is a senior angel greeter in heaven

      Love
      kj

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  15. I like it that you remember your friends. It's hard to believe that it has been three years already. It's hard to believe that one so vibrant is gone at all. Robin mentioned Renee in her response to my last post. I think I've written about her once, but have thought of her hundreds of times.

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    1. Snow, in my view (and heart) Renee is once in a lifetime. I can easily understand why we carry her in our thoughts

      I'm glad you knew her, snow

      Love
      kj

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  16. This is a great posting I have read. I like your article. Thank you

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